My thoughts on life at the moment

I have not been very good at keeping up with this AT ALL!

Today I was thinking about my family and life in general and how quickly time flies. I realized the other day that come Sept. 23, I will have been a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints for 10 years! I does not seem like it has been 10 years. I remember when I first joined this church. I thought to myself that I was going to do everything right. I was going to be the perfect mormon. As time went by, I started to realize that I couldn't always do everything. I told myself that I would just do the best that I could and rely on my Heavenly Father for help with the rest. As I was thinking about this, I started thinking about those small simple things that we are taught to do, you know, reading the scriptures, saying my prayers, those kinds of things. As I was thinking about this, I realized how much I got down on my knees and prayed then compared to now. I realized how often I read my scriptures. Boy, I have got some work to do!

I can't believe that almost 10 years ago, I had our first little girl. I was wanting to go to nursing school and when I saw her beautiful chubby face for the first time, I knew that I needed to be with her and that school had to wait. I LOVE being a stay at home mom. I love being here for my girls and knowing that they are at home being taught by me and not some daycare. I know that someday I will be able to go to school but until then I will continue to enjoy my days at home with my girls because I am learning that this time with them will not last forever. There are moments that are NOT easy but I know in the end it will all be worth it. I know that when they grow up, I won't have regrets about not working during the day so that they could have that new toy or that new Ipod. I will look back and remember being there for my girls and I hope that they will remember the good times that we have had and not the not so good ones.

I am so grateful for my husband. I am so thankful that I am able to be a member of the church and it's because he was willing to share that knowledge with me. I am grateful that our family has the church in our lives. I am so happy to be here on the earth at this time and to be able to raise four beautiful spirits in this wonderful church. I know that I could not raise these girls on my own. I need the Lord's help and I am so grateful to know that He is there and is willing to help me.